Saturday, February 22, 2003
Well instead of snoozing I have been poking around the web while the laundry finishes.... I haven't been back to the Aug 03 board since I lost Emily Elizabeth but today I was poking around the PP CL Team board as I am trying to figure out why my site won't show graphics/pics on one page but does another (but that is a different story) and saw the announcement from an old Oct99PG friend Velda that she is expecting again and will have an official pumpkin (her son is an unofficial pumpkin born 12/99).. Velda also came and posted on our board about it the other day and I am THRILLED for her as she had a really hard loss early 02 and like those of us that have lost a child she longed for another.... but as I scanned down the board further there was a major slap in face.. they have named the CL(s) for the Aug 03 board... The ladies still expecting are past the 1st trimester and well into the second...... and I -- I am NOT... I sooo long to be pg still, I long to feel Emily Elizabeth doing somersaults in me... to feel my waist expanding and know that soon there would another sweet, innocent baby in the house.... I thought I was ok with everything, that I had come to terms with it all but man it still hurts... Til next time...
